|I cannot wait to eat this...|
Yes, I miss it. And it hasn't been incredibly helpful that Ben hasn't been shy about consuming sugar in front of me. When he deemed the oatmeal I made not sweet enough on Monday morning (I used an apple sauted in butter, and topped it with chopped, dried apricots), he topped it off with some maple syrup. As we were lounging after dinner on the couch last night, he grabbed a handful of dark chocolate covered almonds to satisfy his sweet tooth. Obviously, I wanted some, but I made do without. And again, it was not terrible.
I will be the first to admit that I have not been super fastidious about avoiding sugar. When it's under my control, I have not touched a thing with added sugar. But, I have kept the cream in my coffee and the butter on my bread (the bread was homemade and was sugar-free). And when I ate the Cuban sandwich I got from the cafeteria at work yesterday, the relish most definitely had extra, non-natural sweetness. But I figured when the sweet in your life comes in the form of relish, there are definitely worse things.
Am I excited for the chocolate I will be awarding myself with on Friday night? Absolutely. Are those peanut butter covered pretzels staring me down every time I open the cupboard? Hell yes. But I have also discovered something: apparently I have will power. Who would have guessed it? On a somewhat more serious note, I have learned that I use sugary snacks as rewards, and maybe that isn't the best system. Finish washing the dishes? Eat some chocolate. Took the dog for a walk? Slather toast with some yummy jelly. Didn't verbally assault that annoying coworker? You've earned some Twizzlers!
In summary, (although not quite summary because I still have two more days) it hasn't been much of a challenge, but I do think I accomplished my goal of resetting my system to not crave the sweet stuff at every possible moment. And I recognized that I do not need to celebrate every good deed with a sweet treat, nor end every night with dessert. So, that's something. Granted, as a pat on the back for completing this week without sugar, I will congratulate myself on Saturday by buying a brownie batter donut and then eat it slowly, happily, and guilt free. I may still need some time to internalize what I've learned... but that's some other week.